| I haven't posted much lately, but not because I haven't had anything to say but because I was putting off writing this post and I needed to be able to get my thoughts together enough to do it. I am not going to be posting on this blog any more; I have been trying to quit for a couple of months now and I guess it feels like another "leaving him behind" moment. I have exhausted my picture of him for the most part. I started this blog to record his pictures and memories and that has been accomplished; along the way, it developed into something a little more and for that I am grateful, but I feel as though it is time to bring it to an end. I'll still be blogging on my other blog and I am sure it will include things about Knox and my writings from here will carry over to our family blog because he is still a part of our family.
I want to thank again all of you that have been supportive of our family. Thank you for all the notes, the prayers, the comments and messages. I appreciated all of them even if I wasn't able to respond at the time I received them. This blog will stay where it is; the pictures and stories will be here for viewing and reading and maybe they will be a comfort to someone down the road.
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| I was watching part of a miniseries yesterday in which there is a character whose mom died when she was still young. Someone was asking her about it and she said that she felt like her mom was still there along side her while she did her chores and took care of her siblings. She found this comforting. I could relate well to that; I still feel Knox's presence and "see" him playing along his siblings, kissing Creed on the forehead just like everyone else, and climbing up beside me on the couch for a quick cuddle. He left but is still here.
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| I was kissing on Creed, and it reminded me of how I would pull Knox on my lap and smother him with kisses. I would imagine how one day I would go to do that and he would say something along the lines of, "Mom!!! I am too big to be kissed like that." I both dreaded and looked forward to that day.
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